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  My name is Aayush. I come from Balkhu, Kathmandu. I was born in a regular middle-class Nepalese family. My father is a civil engineer, which has inspired me to become something great despite of my rough full past.  I didn’t want to live in a crowded city, so I chose Damak. Flying to Damak alone and starting a new life in a totally different place was a really huge challenge for me at first but now everything is much better. Adjusting to listening the language takes time and sometimes I missed my family and friends in Kathmandu a lot. At The College, I have a number of great friends who I get along well with. They are from different places  including Ilam, Biratnagar,Kathmandu  . Many of them are my classmates and others I met in the common room, the Social Club or through mutual friends. Even though we’re from different places with distinct cultures, we understand and respect each other. In class, whenever someone has difficulty studying,  everyone is kind and...

“The only way we can change the way we feel is by becoming aware of our inner experience and learning to befriend what is going inside ourselves.” ~Bessel A. van der Kolk Learning to be alone as an adult has been a struggle for me. It’s taken quite a while for me to adjust to spending periods of time by myself. It may sound strange to those who know me because I am most definitely an introvert and need my quiet time. However, my time alone was never quite as satisfying as I’d hoped it would be. Often my solitude dissolved into sadness, and I didn’t have a particular reason why. My alone time wasn’t productive, and it just made me feel out of sorts. It was frustrating because I knew I needed time to myself, but I couldn’t stand to be alone. Once I began to get curious about the sadness and apathy I’d feel when I was alone, things started to shift. One day, I noticed that a particular script would begin to play in my mind over and over again. No matter what time of day or the len...

     There are many days that maybe just one more day to do nothing sound pretty good to me. Being well-rested & totally awake for the first time in life I have done different things. I am busted with energy. Eating different varieties. I took my Laptop and start to do many things. I need some action. For the last few weeks, I've been protecting my action, watching movies, chatting with my friends and family, which I never have time for. Sleeping as long as I like & have some of the best time of my life.          A black nothingness behind the door keeps me bringing food & I found I can order my food. I've got my day full sequential then. I wake up at 8 am without the alarm. I've learned different new things. It amazing which I've found inside me. Chatting With my friends, I realised, how you miss them all. I decided to call my relatives taking my day off. I talked with them Like there is no tomorrow. During the call, I realized t...

          Loneliness is a complication. New town, New Job, depression, social anxiety, low self-esteem, no friend, sometimes it's none of those things & sometimes it's all of them. Sometimes it's brief, sometimes it's more long-lasting. Sometimes it makes sense why & sometimes it doesn't make any sense at all.       There might be a simple solution for some, while for others there is not. You can see why it's so complication, just like with most thing there is no single common cause or cure. Nor is there a clear definition because how could we possibly define any element of something so abstract. If we look at the term loneliness online the first things that pop up is sadness because one has no friend or company. I wouldn't say that entirely true. It wasn't in my case at least.     For me, it was actually around the time when I was surrounded by people almost constantly, very rarely was I not accompanied by others, althoug...

Sometime the smallest of things trigger memories so strange & so beautiful that they leave us speechless.The small pieces of our past. They are always safe in our memories.  Memories are like chocolate boxes, once you can't stop at just one. The moment when you say goodbye, but her reach on stop me can't say our heart things. The time you far feel good for her But the time you go far away you love more & think better in life. Let's come in a topic.  I love my passion more than anything. So I am leaving you. I feel hard but I carried many unforgettable memories of big suitcase. I cannot forget it, the day , night, laugh, and our friendship and ... .I've run very fast towards my passion. What you are looking at? Time passing by us... I don't know why, but I'm making me miss home today. I don't feel this before for a long time but I forget it. Me & I are basically the same. People like us are vagabond for us, to wander is to live....

Love is simply the name for the desire and pursuit of the whole.-Plato, The ancient Greeks believed humans once had four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces. We were happy, complete. So complete that the gods,fearing our wholeness would quell our need for worship, cleaved us in two. Leaving our split selves to wander the Earth in misery. Forever longing, longing .......... longing for the other half of our soul. It is said that when one half finds its other, there's an unspoken understanding. A unity, and each would know no greater joy than this. Of course the ancient Greek never went to high school, or they had realise Crap. We don't need the god  to mess things up for us. If you ask me people spend far too much time to complete them. How many People find perfect love? or if they do, make it last? More  evidence of camus's theory that life is irrational & meaningless. And that, my friend , is some A-plus love philosophy right there or A-minus if...

Wow, did I actually say that out loud? Yes! So many people I talk to are tightlipped and straight-faced, nodding their head saying “not bad mate”, when what they really wanna say is “holy shit,  what the hell is going on!”Let’s get real for a minute. Everyone has challenges, everyone has goals and if you are not finding life really hard at the moment, then congratulations. Take stock for a moment and be grateful for everything you have in your life. Stop, write down everything that you’re grateful for and then help someone else. Teach them how you did what you did. Or, maybe you’re not stretching yourself enough. Maybe you are content to be in your comfort zone. For 95% of the population, that’s enough. “you can’t read the label from inside the jar.” However, if you are finding life challenging right now, it’s OK. Hang in there, it will get better. Just make sure you’re talking to someone and getting it out of your  system and getting a second perspective. I keep goin...