Waking up never be so sleepy......

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     There are many days that maybe just one more day to do nothing sound pretty good to me. Being well-rested & totally awake for the first time in life I have done different things. I am busted with energy. Eating different varieties. I took my Laptop and start to do many things. I need some action. For the last few weeks, I've been protecting my action, watching movies, chatting with my friends and family, which I never have time for. Sleeping as long as I like & have some of the best time of my life.

   
     A black nothingness behind the door keeps me bringing food & I found I can order my food. I've got my day full sequential then. I wake up at 8 am without the alarm. I've learned different new things. It amazing which I've found inside me. Chatting With my friends, I realised, how you miss them all. I decided to call my relatives taking my day off. I talked with them Like there is no tomorrow. During the call, I realized that they are also doing the same as I did & feeling the same. 


         It has been like whole months since I've become confined to my house. But It has been probably the best time ever. Even though I can't gon outside, I move much more and even save my money. I look as fresh as  I never can. I've learned many things about the world & myself, then my past few years. And most important of all I'd the best qualitative time with my close for a few weeks except my friend. But still, it makes me sad I can't visit each other.


             I'm hungry for real people, live conversation. I become sad & said to myself, "hey blackness may it's a time to call a day. Its been great but I need other people". As always, it doesn't answer. 
And in this time I've learn appreciate what I have......

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